I think I'm starting to figure out shit about myself I didn't know until now. Or parts of myself I refused to accept because I constantly thought "no, that's complete bullshit".
I'm Aromantic. I'm Asexual. I'm Aetheist.
Don't like it? Doors right there. I'm taking no shit from anyone anymore. My word is final and if you don't agree, kindly f**k off.
I use the words " no" and "stop" for a reason. If you can't respect my boundaries, f**k off. There's no middle ground anymore. If I don't want something, I don't want it. NO FORM OF CONVINCING WILL WORK! SO STOP TRYING!
My level of irritation with people has been hit and has gone beyond that limit. I've had it with people. I'm done. Do you understand?
Better off with having just a group of close friends that understand where I'm coming from and will be there for me when the stress of life in general takes its toll on my mind and all I want to do is just curl up in bed and just let my pencil do the talking.
That's how I am. I let my pencil do most of the talking when it comes to me. Yeah there will be times where I lower my walls but its not often and if you even think of taking advantage of those times, I will literally flat out refuse to talk to you and will not respond to anything you say. I will also hold a grudge (yes I can hold a grudge to the point that I could care less about what's going on in your life.)
I've been through so much and the shit I've survived has molded me into what I am.
I just want to be left alone, I don't want to be touched, I need quiet. My mind is a cacophony of thoughts, each trying to be heard above the others. And I feel sick to my stomach.
Honestly wish I applied to school earlier because then I wouldn't be in this State. I'd be in Massachusetts, focusing on something I've wanted to do for so long.
But yeah. I'm done with people.